Thursday, June 16, 2011

terasing

tak tau
tak tau
tak tau
and malas nk ambik tau...

ishh...rs mcm xbaik pula duk p jawab cmneh (mmg xbaik pon kan?xsopan kan?)
but honestly, I don’t have an feeling of ‘ambik tau’ anymore....
biaq p kat hang la noo
kalu hang msg..hang nk ja ak reply cepat2
tp kalu ak msg hang..tergaru2 kepala yang xdak kelumumoq and kutu ni...duk tertanya-tanya...delivered ka msg aku ni? ka ak hantaq msg kosong kat hang? ka hang xdak kredit? biaq betui no..xkan smpai berbulan2 hang xdak kredit..ish..mungkin juga...
bukanny ak xmo p cari hang jmpa face to face...Cuma bila ak p ja...org2 kat situ tgk ak ni mcm ak ni xdak face...tertanya-tanya aku..xckup mata ka aku ni?xdak hidung ka aku ni?tp bila ak raba-raba ada ja smua...hmmm
kalu hang rasa nk mai cari aku nanti or bila2 ka...hang mai la...aku xkesah...tp jgn duk guna ak dh la...

maap
ku sudah malas nk cari hang....
and nk ambik tau pasai hang....
bukan maksudnya aku benci....
tapi ak rasa macam...macam aku xwujud ja kat muka bumi ni.

hadoila...
invisible species kot aku ni ...tp rasa mcm satu keturunan ja....
maybe hang keturunan limau kasturi aku keturunan limau nipis kot...
kedua-duanya limau tp lain jenis...lain rasa..lain rupa...
ok..apa yg aku duk merepek ni...

haishh....
tapi apa leh buat
bukan aku mau pon jadi lagu ni..
mmg la ada peribahasa melayu kata air yang dijinjang xkan putus...
tp kalu buh dlm lain2 jug..kan terasing juga....
TERASING...

Jauh...jauh..dan semakin jauh....
dan kita terasing di pentas yang sama....

I really wish that we could get together like before...
AMEEN

Friday, June 10, 2011

I have no regret...

Yes!
No regret at all...

A friend of mine ask me “ade bende tak yg u menyesal tak buat time u stadi dlu?”

Alhamdulilah...I guess it is NO. Betul!Tak tipu punya.... though only been there for two years but I believe it was the most quality time that I had ever spent.

~I went travelling.
~I worked part-time.
~I managed to save some money.
~I managed to get good grades...(owhh..not here...+_+)
~I have a lot of friends.
~I shopped a lot..shop..shop till I drop? (Ayyooo..penat membanting tulang pastu ku p beli apa tatau)
~I learned to value the meaning of friendship (Guys, thanks for supporting me all this while)
~Sama-sama ikat perut..kelaparan sbb elaun xmasuk lg...(ok..tipu...xikat tp mkn xmeriah...xleh nk mkn yg merapu-rapu)
~ Learn to be a strong and tough person.
~Learn to stand up for myself...not being bullied and deceived by others.
~Learn to.....byk lagi!(Ok dh mls nk tulis..basically self development and improvement and mengenali tentang Dia and dia..chewahh..tentang Dia dan manusia lah!)

Okay...byk sungguh yang 'I learned' there actually but yg sgt2 precious adalah I learned what is tawakal dan yakin kepadaNya....and setiap sesuatu mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya...
I guess both are the reasons why I have no regret....

Alhamdulilah...treasuring my own self and life help me to be better and thankful
Cause.... 

It’s life and you can’t run from it!