It is out!

It is out.

The Result.

Am I happy?

Am I frustrated?

Not really sure...

But,
Alhamdulilah

I am really sure...

I am relieved.

I am grateful.

I am proud of myself.

“Cause learning is not about grades”

“It is about learning”

And now...
I'm learning to learn it...
Wholeheartedly.
Insyallah

You and me

It’s clear now

You and me

Yours and mine

Different!

Sometimes I wonder

Who are we in your eyes?

Are we too different?

Though we are not in the same boat

We still sail it on the same ocean...

lab test

I went to the Red Hill Collection for the lab test as suggested by Dr Jan Casey...Alhamdulilah, I was told that they will send the bill straight away to the Medibank (kopak la kalu kena byr sndri)...She asked me, “Do you want to do it now?”... I said “Yes!!” (dengan amat confident skali..padahal dr kecik2 mmg takot jarum)...After a few seconds, I realized that she took about 5 tubes of my blood (patutla lama sgt)...Gudness!!Byk ok!!!

I really hope that the result will come out clean...Ameen

Met Hanis at city. She told me “Kau pucat sgt..kau ok ke?”. At the moment I felt nothing, cuma lenguh tangan sebelah kanan ja...bila dh sampai umah...huii penat and letih gila...At last KO for 2 hours....hee (skrg dh ok cuma lengan masih lenguh....mmg camneh eh?)

various....

Firstly,

Alhamdulilah...for the 1^st time in these two years I got 7 for both assessments thou rmai ckp lecturer tu saiko...

For me, she’s bit saiko but if u follow what she said..insyallah u’ll be fine....

Then why you guys nk bising2?Dtg kelas x? Buat cam dia cakap x?

Pandai-pandai pk la..dh besar dah pon....

Secondly,

I’m bored already..Fa...ku sudah rindu..thx for visiting us here...hope u enjoy the trip to the fullest

Bila bawa Fa berjalan-jali di Kota Brisbane, I just realized that besar jugak rupanya Brissy neh... (apola.. dh nk balik bru nak tahu ke?haishhh)

Fa..Thanx for treating me at Max Brenner...(kusuka waffle tu...sedaapp)

Alamak!!lupa nk sedut gambo!!!!

Nanti la ya..jgn delete tau!

Thirdly,

Welcome back home to the fruit pickers....

Mmg kental abes la....

Ak yg dgr ni pon rs terseksa....

Btw, tanned gila weyhh korg...(nk tggu tgk si scottish bertukar menjadi african..tp cm xkesampaian ja...heee)

Happy ak td tgk korg mkn even yg ak masak tu cm xsedapp...hehe...ya ampunnn!!!

Get well soon to both of you!

Lastly,

Ish..ak dh xtau nk ckp apa2 dh...

We can’t play all the times!
There is time for that.

And there is a limit too.

You should know it

It’s a common sense
People's life pon ko leh buat main2....
(Perlukan org tlg explainkn ke?)

OK..DAH LEGA!ALHAMDULILAH!

Eid Adha

Eid Adha celebration...

Nothing much could be told....

Just a plain celebration with a painful stomach....

It's 10 Zulhijjah 1431

Okay...

Malam ni adalah malam raya

Sayunya....

Raya keempat diperantauan

But insyallah..dgn kawan2 disisi..rindu itu akan terubat, I believe....

Okay,

Sangat sedih apabila sehari before raya and on the malam raya itself you are feeling sick

Sangat x best

I think kali ni paling worst penah alami

I can’t even walk to the kitchen this morning

I can’t even sleep on the bed

I nearly cried...

Okay,

Result ICT dah keluar

I feel really nervous and afraid...

What grade will I get?

Will I pass the assessment?

Seriously, I am ‘cuak’ when I saw her marks

Will I be okay?

Okay,

Sudah...esok raya....you should enjoy your last raya here!

Put all worries aside dulu...

I really hope I can join to the Eid Prayer tomorrow

nk ikot juga!!!!!

Enough with your sorry

Don’t say sorry anymore

Cause it means nothing

It doesn’t matter how many times you say it

But in the end...It just the same

Okay, fine~

I can see it clearly

I know well about it

I know well how it works

Sometimes I wonder...

Who are we in your eyes?

Why you treat us differently?

Are we different from them?

May be we are just your friends but not your ‘friends’.

Your words

Your words,

I felt they were folly,

I felt they were empty.

I felt they were petty,

Your words,

I always ignored them,

I always forgot them,

I didn’t take them seriously,

But now...

As I experienced them,

I looked back and reflected you words,

I realized how much they mean to me,

I realized how important they are to me,

They are so precious.

They teach me how to live the life,

They teach me how to love the life,

They are PRICELESS!

Ayah,

Now I understand how you felt before.
Ayah,
Sorry for not being such a good daughter.
Ayah,
I'm so sorry.

I will be missing you so much....

It's official: I am retiring! Huge decision... but all things considered, it seems to be time to hang up my academic hat and concentrate on staying well, being a Grandma, playing more music, and keeping tabs on all my faraway friends. Phew…(Jo Carr, 10^th November, 2010)

Finally she announced it to us…

Though I felt a bit sad but I believe it is good decision...

Hope u will get stronger and can fly n visit us later...

Thank you for always being with us and everything you have done...

You are the best coordinator ever!

You are the best educator ever!

You are the best supporter ever!

You are the best counselor ever!

You are the best motivator ever!

You are the BEST!!

I think this song suits you the most, Jo…I will miss you so much….

Because You Loved Me

Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I love you so much Jo~

Psst: Astagfirullahalazim...camna ak leh jd shopaholic arini....jgn shopping lebih2!!kan ad target yg perlu dicapai..haishh...but I really love my United Colors of Bennetton handbag and purse...They are so gorgeous!

I’m really FULL and I feel really FAT too...

I’m really  FULL

and I feel really FAT too...

At the first place, Syapa ajak p mandi kat Southbank...tp malas n segan la...tggu girls outing... bru best nk main2 kat Street Beach...dh siap2 nk solat isya’ tiba Batip ajak g Indian Kitchen..apa lagi...seperti orang mengantuk disorongkan bantal.....perut memang dh berdondang sayang ditambah pula nk g dgn kereta....laju ja smua nk g (“korang ni..ak ajak g mndi kat Southbank xnak..ak ajak g makan..laju je smua org” kata Cik Put selaku driver n ketua rombongan...hehe...)

At first, menjamu selera kat Indian Kitchen selepas penat mncari parking

Rice+butter chicken+mango chicken+tandoori chicken+naan cheese+plain water

(perut naga ke smua org ni..tp abes tau..sbb sgt lapar!!!!)

Pas bergossip2..meluah perasaan...”ish xbest la kat sini..org ramai...Jom g Max Brenner jom!”

Iced choc+choc waffle

 Nampak sedap kan?Mmg sedap pon...heee

(I think mkn kat Sydney dulu lg sedap tp masih sedap juga...choc itu sgt ssseeedddaaapppp)


Then, we went to Kanggaroo Point
(Rupa-rupa cntik Brissy City dikala malam)


Lastly, lalu Story Bridge
(Mmg dalam angan2 nk lalu Story Bridge time malam2...cntik!Subhanallah)

Anyway..it was such a memorable outing...

Smlm bru je duk smbg dgn Ben..nk g mkn kat Indian Kitchen and Max Brenner...

alhamdulilah...Allah itu kan Maha Mendengar....

I’m really  FULL

and I feel really FAT too...

Psst: Pada sgt ini masih kenyang smpai xleh tdo..even td kerja 5 jam berbekal kn sesuap nasi sbgai breakfast...

Yeay!

Alhamdulillah..yeay!

Dah abes exam!

Dah abes a-sigh-ments!

Dah abes sem!

Nak buat apa cuti neh?

Hmmmm....

Alhamdullilah...I felt a bit proud of myself cuz I managed to control my anxiety...though I still went to the toilet during the exam, it was not as worst as before!Keep that up!

Haishhh..kenapala dua tiga hari ini rs menyampah dgn dia..dh besar2 pon nk mengada2 lg....haishh...bertalam sepuluh muka lagi...

Ohh....Perlis terchenta masih banjir lg...tp air dlm umah dh surut....Ya Allah permudahkan urusan hamba2Mu...ameen

Finally, it will be shipped~

Byk giler kan?

Hahaha...macam2 ada....

Total semua kotak= 19

18 boxes will be shipped to Perlis

1 will be shipped to Putrajaya (Thx Erma... TenTen, till we meet again in IPBA)

Started at 4.30 pm

Finished at 8.00pm

**Kosongnya garage...hehe...**

**Seronok main train2...**

**Happy Birthday Aliaa**

Okeh..Jumaat ni exam...sila study!!! 

Langit itu tinggi atau rendah?

Entah mengapa...

Dekat-dekat nak balik nie..

Sebuk-sebuk packing nie...

Semakin hari semakin meluat...

People...

Come and try to stand in our shoes...

Then you will know....

Langit itu tinggi or rendah?

“Xpa la duk overseas...hidup senang...elaun byk, leh g jalan merata2”

Ye ke?

Sure ke?

Dah experience ke?

Owhh...belum lg rupanya.

**COUGHING**

shop!shop!shop!until you dropped!

Shop!

Shop!

Shop!

Until you dropped!

Chronology:

2.00pm – Uni...g print a-sigh-ment and resources

2.40 pm -  Gerak ke dfo

6.50pm – city

7.20pm – Paranormal II movie

9.30pm - Little Malaysia

11.30pm - Herston United Complex

It was a tiring day but enjoyable, memorable and meaningful

“Eh, Hani betul ke nk ikot ktrg tgk ni?”

“Hani sure nk g tgk?Anaqi nk beli ticket ni?”

“Eh Hani ada sini, biar betul ni nk tgk ni?”

TerKEJU ke kawan2??

Sungguh ku tidak sangka begitu responsenya

Adakah mukaku menunjukkan seorang yang penakut?

Hehe

Tak kesahla...sbb kwn2 smua supportive n sgt baik hati

Terbaek la korang!

Psst:I do watch ghost stories actually but still prefer comedies

Kent~~

I went to the uni’s library after Rod’s class...ingat nk stay wat esemen Jan smpai abes la konon2nya...

tiba2 lapar and mengantuk...dalam hati..xpa la..garlic bread kan ada..leh makan satg..ilang la ngntuk and lapar...then suddenly...sreshhh..OMG!pkcik seblahku kentut..berirama n berbau lg...tak tahannnn!!!!maap pkcik...xdpt nk thn sengih td...lucu pon ada....kesian pon ada..pkcik tu terkantoi terkentut kat library...namapon library...xdak la senyap sgt tp xdak la bsg sgt..tp org sekeliling leh dgr....kesian pkcik..tp pkcik cuba cover2 kentut..tue plg xleh tahan...kesian pkcik...mesti xsengajakan pkcik?

Satisfied!

Masterchef QUT C5 mmg sgt best!

sgt happening!

sgt hilarious!

sgt memorable!

sgt sedap!

sgt creative!

sgt semualah!

nanti mesti rindu kenangan ni~

and happy birthday juga kepada API!

Ooopss...... xstart apa2 pon lg write up utk Jan...huuuuu...

MARI BERUSAHA!

Yes!! Finally I managed to send her an email

Apa pun kau reply...kusudah tidak hiraukan

Cukup-cukup la dgn ungkapan maaf tu...kusudah mangli dgn perkataan itu

Cukup-cukup la dgn janjimu...kusudah tidak percaya lagi

Sudah la si penipu!

Kusudah tak percaya lg!

Menipuku hidup2!

Mereka-reka cerita meminta simpati!

Do you think that you can close ur ‘bangkai gajah’ dgn ur hands?

Mimpi la...lambat laun berbau juga even you can cover it...

Penat kukerja tunggang tebalik...sesedap rasa je kau bersuka ria dgn duitku

Manusia jenis apa ni pon kutatau...

Tak sangka pula ad manusia camgini...

Ish...ish...

Diri...xpa la..kalu ad rezeki tu..dpt balik la duit tu..kalu xdak nk buat camna...

Lain kali xyah duk percaya dh dgn org2 cmni

Buang masa, tenaga, perasaan dan buang semua-semua lah

Diri...xpa..sabaq la naa

Ingat Allah tu adil...ada ubi ada batas

Daripada incident ni kan kau dh bljar erti patience, trust, friendship, promises, stand for yourself and life

Kan ada hikmah disebalik tu

Cheer up!!

Chill!!

Cepat start esemen Jan!!

Stop merepek kat blog ni dh!!

If you think that I am mean...don’t blame me but blame yourself...cuz you’re the reason for the meanness

Kecewa

I trusted you

but you broke my trust

I’m sad

Now I’m learning not to trust people

so MUCH

satisfied?

Hancur harapan aku nak stay kat uni...

Balik sajalah...

Di mana silapnya

Warisan

Sudirman

Sedih...

Pilu...

Hampa...

Kecewa....

Terkedu aku sebentar

Termangu aku seketika

Tertanya-tanya diri ini dimanakah silapnya

Adakah salah ibu yang mengandung?

Atau salah anak yang tidak sedar dek untung?

Adakah mahu menunggu saat untuk terantuk?

Baru kita sebuk untuk tengadah?
Jangan kita sebuk untuk menuding jari
Kerana hanya satu jari sahaja yang menunjuk kehadapan

Fikir...

dan terus berfikir...

Apakah matlamat hidup kita sebenarnya?

Kemanakah halu tuju kita sebenarnya?

Apa yang sebenarnya kita mahu dalam hidup ini?

Fikir...

dan terus berfikir...

Hidup ini berpasangan

Ada lelaki ada perempuan

Ada siang ada malam

Ada pahit ada manis

Ada jalan yang lurus dan ada juga jalan bengkok

Yang mana agaknya akan dipilih?

“Teringat kata-kata seorang sahabat, kalau kat Egypt tu...ada dua ja jalan..jalan Firaun or jalan Nabi Musa”

Note: Salam perantauan, senior and junior

Shall I Compare Thee To A Summer's Day?

 Shall I Compare Thee To A Summer's Day?

by William Shakespeare (1564-1616)

 

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

Thanks peeps for supporting me...

I don’t know whether I can survive without your support...

They are a lot...

A lot till I couldn’t describe them...

A friend of mine once said

“Agak2 ada x ada kwn cm dlm 3 idiots?cam xde je”

But I have!

More than one...a lot!

Akan kuingat saat menjadi zombie bersama2 kat uni lab...

Akan kuingat saat lunch nasi kosong bersama lauk yg dh hmpir basi...

Akan kuingat saat sakit perut sama2 keesokan harinkedai ya...

Akan kuingat saat pergi mencari makanan tp smua dh tutup...

Akan kuingat saat terlepas van Uncle John...

Akan kuingat nasi goreng itu...

Semua itu kenangan...

Kenangan yg akan ku semat rapi dalam kenanganku...insyallah

Saat susah senang bersama...

Thanks for being my friends...

Thanks a lot!

I know who I am

I know…

I’m not as pretty as you are.

I’m not as kind as you are.

I’m not as pious as you are.

But I do really know…

I have heart.

I have feeling.

I have emotion.

I’m a human being…

Just like you.

It’s hurt.

Seriously!

Your words

They are hurting me so badly.

T_T

Ohh...Express rakyat!!

Kalu harini tak dapat,

No worries~

Next month confirm ada yang baru punya!!!

**terkedu...ada juga eh mcm ni?**

Luar nampak matang,

Dalaman???

Ohh...hanya Engkau yang tahu....

**sbb tu orang tua-tua pesan don’t judge a book by its cover**

Kematangan tidak diukur pada umur yang meningkat

Tetapi kematangan diukur pada akal pemikiran, pertuturan dan tindakan kita

**It doesn’t mean that if you’re older than me, you’re more matured than me**

**Nie la perangai orang kita,salu rasa kematangan berkadar terus dgn umur**

membebel....lega sket

I think it was rude. Tak perlu la nk ckp "tak ingat saya ke?kita pernah jumpa at...”. Nama pun PERNAH, okay ~, ntah berapa kali la PERNAH terjumpa tue...hey! I took 2 days tau nk igt nama bdk2 2H aritu...tu pon tersilap antara Max and Tex, inikan pula akak tu....xlarat dh weii nk bgtau hang...masuk angin keluar asap ja...xpernah nak ingat..pastu nanti ngadu orang xsuka kat hang la...benci kat hang la...xmau kawan dgn hang la...tp bila orang gitau hang, hang xmau dengar...dah2 la weii...meluat dh..dh ckup mls dah nk habaq..rs cm nk record pastu play ja lain kali...sng sket..kerja duk ckp benda yang sama ja..buang masa ja... 

PM? MB? Do you think you are ‘somebody’ yang nk smua org igt hang? Kita nie org biasa ja...xfamous pon...Tak perlu la rasa all people should remember us, tak perlu la igt kita ni femes serata alam...Tak perlu la buat muka if people don’t remember us, it’s normal okayh..unless la kalu mmg rpt dgn org tu..tiba2 dia xigt..it’s acceptable la nk kecik hati kalu org tu xigt pon..ini??haishh....agak2 la kan..ada x org yang hang jmpa..pastu jmpa the next time hang xigt nama? pastu dia tanya...”xkan xigt saya, kita pernah jmpa dulu??”...memburukkan keadaan if time tu ramai org....agak2 apa yang hang rasa??malu dak??

owh ya...cara percakapan dgn different people kn differ...cra kita bckp dgn kwn kan xsama dgn kalu kita bckp dgn cikgu and sgtla xsama dgn cara kita bckp dgn budak2 kecik..lain kan?kita kn pnh blja dlm lingu dulu...xigt apa tah term dia...colloquial speechkan..ke apa tah

..tgk??kan lupa juga..tue blja utk satu sem tu...adeyyy...maaf la duk membebel kat sini..dh xlarat nk ckp verbally...Ingat senang and seronok ke nk tegur org nie?

p/s: Dam...moga tambah..insyallah ur mum will be fine...kudoakan ibumu dr jauh...Dam, bertabah!Kuatkan hati dan semangat!Ingat, Dia kan ada...insyallah....terkejut dgn berita tersebut...macam2 dugaan kita...xpa.anggap dugaan ni bg kita lagi kuat

tersenyum kembali....

Alhamdulilah...

Selepas mendengar suaramu...

Kumampu tersenyum kembali...

Biarpun kita jauh beribu batu....

Kau tetap hati!

Dia kan ada...

Hati...

bertenanglah...

Diri...

bertabahlah...

Emosi...

sila stabil please....

Minda.....

sila focus!

sikit ja la..bertahan..bertahan...she’ll be fine...Insyallah....

Ingat

Dia kan ada....Dia pasti akan menjaga dia

Don’t worry too much, dear

She’ll be fine, insyallah....

Kalau kita duk sedih-sedih cmneh...mesti dia lagi sedih...

She loves you so much

So, you must love yourself as well

Dah...dah...

Jangan serabut2 lg...jgn sedih2 lg...jgn emo2 lg...
You said you wanna be a strong girl
Kalau duk serabut2 cmnih...mcm mana nk jd strong...
Bangun...bangun...

Ada 4 esemen menanti

Ada 1 exam menanti

She hopes the best from you, dear

I know you can face all these

Just do whatever you need to do

Ingat

Dia kan ada....

periuk kecik tp nk kerak besar

Smlm tepon mak....mcm2 cerita keluar...from A to Z...from gossips to life experiences...kalu masa kecik2 dulu...huii..takot gila dgn mak...garang gila...tp skrg dh besar2 nie...kita dh jd mcm kawan dh kn, mak kn? though i know u won’t read this, nk tnya jugak!!Even kita dh cm kawan, I’m still ur daughter, insyallah akn sentiasa mnjaga batas2nya. Alhamdulillah, bila dh besar2 ni...I can see what lies behind your teaching. I’m grateful to Him, though mak sgt grg masa kami kecik2 dulu...tp kalu mak xgarang macam tu...mungkin skrg kami adik beradik x jadi ‘orang’, kan mak kan?

Mak, even dlm kita bersembang2 biasa...dlm sedar xsedar...u always gives me a lot of advices. Your advices selalunya madah yang bersahaja tetapi sgt mendalam....beautiful yet meaningful....lupa...cikgu bm la katakan...hikhik....

“org skrg nie mcm2...periuk kecik tp nk kerak besar”

Yep, that’s right, mak...org skrg ni mmg mcm2...from your words tu...mcm2 kita leh tafsirkan....mcm2 yg berkaitan.....

“janganla kita berjaya dlm pelajaran sahaja tetapi......”

Nauzubillah, minta dijauhkan, minta disimpangkan....mcm2 skrg ni...kita dgr byk jenayah kolar putih, rmai org dh ilang common sense, rmai yang dh....mcm2 la....nauzubillahiminzalik...kalu nk kata xbelajar....ramai ja masuk university tp??? Quoted from someone..tp kalu quote dr dua org jd sometwo ke?:P..hehe

“belajar tinggi-tinggi, bodoh bertingkat2”

“orang yang pandai tak semestinya bijak”

Sometimes I wonder, kenapa smua benda ni berlaku...salah siapa?salah asuhan ibu bapa?didikan guru?societies’ expectation? or sbnrnya kita yang xikot ajaran yang satu? Let’s ponder, think and reflect.

Jauh lagi perjalananku ini

Banyak lagi yang perlu aku belajar

Banyak lagi rintangan yang akan kutempuhi

Ya Allah

Tunjukknlah hambaMu ini jalan yang lurus

Jalan orang-orang yang Engkau beri nikmat kepadanya; bukan jalan mereka yang dimurkai dan bukan pula jalan mereka yang sesat

AMEEN....

(1;6,7)

Note: posted, replied.