Harini dan esok....

Don't feel really good...
Please....
Please be good....

Kalau bab duit.....

Kalu bab duit....laju ja semuanya
Kalu bab datang kelas...culas belaka

Kalu bab nak jaga air muka...macam gaya
Kalu bab nak jadi jujur...'tolong kawan' katanya


Cuihhhh...i'm sick of it

terasing

tak tau

tak tau

tak tau

and malas nk ambik tau...

ishh...rs mcm xbaik pula duk p jawab cmneh (mmg xbaik pon kan?xsopan kan?)

but honestly, I don’t have an feeling of ‘ambik tau’ anymore....

biaq p kat hang la noo

kalu hang msg..hang nk ja ak reply cepat2

tp kalu ak msg hang..tergaru2 kepala yang xdak kelumumoq and kutu ni...duk tertanya-tanya...delivered ka msg aku ni? ka ak hantaq msg kosong kat hang? ka hang xdak kredit? biaq betui no..xkan smpai berbulan2 hang xdak kredit..ish..mungkin juga...

bukanny ak xmo p cari hang jmpa face to face...Cuma bila ak p ja...org2 kat situ tgk ak ni mcm ak ni xdak face...tertanya-tanya aku..xckup mata ka aku ni?xdak hidung ka aku ni?tp bila ak raba-raba ada ja smua...hmmm

kalu hang rasa nk mai cari aku nanti or bila2 ka...hang mai la...aku xkesah...tp jgn duk guna ak dh la...

maap

ku sudah malas nk cari hang....

and nk ambik tau pasai hang....

bukan maksudnya aku benci....

tapi ak rasa macam...macam aku xwujud ja kat muka bumi ni.

hadoila...

invisible species kot aku ni ...tp rasa mcm satu keturunan ja....

maybe hang keturunan limau kasturi aku keturunan limau nipis kot...

kedua-duanya limau tp lain jenis...lain rasa..lain rupa...

ok..apa yg aku duk merepek ni...

haishh....

tapi apa leh buat

bukan aku mau pon jadi lagu ni..

mmg la ada peribahasa melayu kata air yang dijinjang xkan putus...

tp kalu buh dlm lain2 jug..kan terasing juga....

TERASING...

Jauh...jauh..dan semakin jauh....

dan kita terasing di pentas yang sama....

I really wish that we could get together like before...

AMEEN

I have no regret...

Yes!

No regret at all...

A friend of mine ask me “ade bende tak yg u menyesal tak buat time u stadi dlu?”

Alhamdulilah...I guess it is NO. Betul!Tak tipu punya.... though only been there for two years but I believe it was the most quality time that I had ever spent.

~I went travelling.

~I worked part-time.

~I managed to save some money.

~I managed to get good grades...(owhh..not here...+_+)

~I have a lot of friends.

~I shopped a lot..shop..shop till I drop? (Ayyooo..penat membanting tulang pastu ku p beli apa tatau)

~I learned to value the meaning of friendship (Guys, thanks for supporting me all this while)

~Sama-sama ikat perut..kelaparan sbb elaun xmasuk lg...(ok..tipu...xikat tp mkn xmeriah...xleh nk mkn yg merapu-rapu)

~ Learn to be a strong and tough person.

~Learn to stand up for myself...not being bullied and deceived by others.

~Learn to.....byk lagi!(Ok dh mls nk tulis..basically self development and improvement and mengenali tentang Dia and dia..chewahh..tentang Dia dan manusia lah!)

Okay...byk sungguh yang 'I learned' there actually but yg sgt2 precious adalah I learned what is tawakal dan yakin kepadaNya....and setiap sesuatu mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya...

I guess both are the reasons why I have no regret....

Alhamdulilah...treasuring my own self and life help me to be better and thankful

Cause.... 

It’s life and you can’t run from it!

Penantian berakhir...

It was out!

Alhamdulilah....:)

I guess it was cara menerima keputusan yg paling scary...so cekeri~

Huiii....you know why?

Few days before it will be out...we have to be accompanied by our hp...make sure that we are contactable...

One call will change your life!

Ala...mcm cerita hantu..one missed call etc...cuak abes okeh...siapa xtakot kan...

kalu failed kena resit...huiii....kalu xpass lg...babai wasalam la....nauzubillah

Syukur alhamdulilah....Allah itu maha mendengar

Have a biscuits?

Today we had a talk by Phil Keegan...ingatkan rmai org attend....tgk2 42 org je....dgn melenggangnya seperti biasa ku masuk lecture hall kul 8.50am...muahahha...maap~(I just adjusted myself according to Malaysian time...after exam saja..kihkih)....

What does it mean by bilingual?

A: People who can speak two languages.

What does it mean by trilingual?

A: People who can speak three languages.

What does it mean by monolingual?

A: Englishman

Class: Muahahahahha

Trgt Jan..."I feel so ashamed cause I'm the only one who knows only one language"... Jan, yYou made me realize that...we are actually special from the native speakers. So, why do we have to look up on them to much...

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

Cantik...

Apa itu cantik?

Sapa yang xmau cantik sila angkat tangan?

Tipula kalu kata ada orang xmau cantikkan?

Bak kata iklan BML (ya kot...xigt sgt dah)...”kecantikan adalah hak milik setiap insan”

Chewaahh...gitue kan~

But what kind of cantik do you want?

Inner?

Outer?

Tepuk dada tanya iman....

Tepuk dada tanya iman lagi...

“Adakah kita sedang berusaha menjadi cantik seperti yang Allah nak?”

“Adakah kita menjadi cantik pada landasan yang betul?”

Hhhmmmmmm.....

Astagfirullahalazim....hambaMu ini terlalu kerdil...

Teringat kata-kata seorang sahabat.... 

"Kecantikan ini adalah kurniaan Allah....kadangkala ia mnjadi nikmat utk kita..kadangkala ia menjadi ujian utk kita...it’s on us to manage it”

Saidatina Aisyah R.A pernah berpesan:

"Sebaik-baik wanita adalah yang tidak memandang & dipandang". 

“Jangan kau berasa bangga dgn kecantikanmu sehingga dikejar jutaan lelaki. Itu bkn kemuliaan bagimu.Jika kau berasa bangga, kau menyamakan dirimu dengan pepasir di pantai, yang boleh dipijak dan dimiliki sesiapa saja. Muliakanlah dirimu dgn taqwa, setanding mutiara Zabarjad, yg hanya mampu dimiliki penghuni syurga”

(iluvislam.com.my)

Insyallah

You might not believe it but I do...but yes, I do...certainly I do...

I’m back!

Yes I’m back..after such a period of ‘busy’ness and laziness....hahaha...

Never experiencing it in front of my own eyes.  Just read and heard about that before....so, I was like percaya and xcaya sgt...org kata mcm 50-50 la....but...dgn kuasa Allah.. He gave me the opportunity to experience it. Experiencing with my own eyes... It was real...REAL!! It was like some of the scenes in the horror films but when I gosok2 mata, I wasn’t dreaming at all....it was real...Subhanallah, He wanted us to see how dangerous (bad??severe?cruel? choose which one do you prefer...and you can select all if you want...) is the black magic. Guess what?? How it turns a person to be ‘someone or something’ that you wouldn’t expect it to be? Suddenly a soft voice turns into a husky voice? Suddenly a person barks like a dog? Howling out loud? Can you imagine that? Do you believe that?

Nauzubillah...minta simpang dr perkara2 mcm ni...syirik....buat naya org dan keturunan saja....To those who don’t believe it...could you please just shut up and mind your own business? By condemning them, you just hurt them more. They are already being hurt and suffer. You just give them more pain. It would be better if you can pray and console them for their nightmares.... Cause words can heal....Please don’t pretend that you’re wearing their shoes while you don’t even know how they look like...

PD's offtasking

Some people asked me why I didn’t for Sabah and Sarawak or KL. If I were to be posted to Sabah and Sarawak, I could get a lot money...kan ada elaun susah hati...or apply for KL...a lot of entertainment, shopping complexes, resources, etc..... and mudah dan senang bak kata mereka!

“Ni, biasa la bila dh tua-tua ni...semua penyakit nak mai kat kita”

“Ni, hidup ni kita bukan leh jangka susah or senang”

I guess both statements explain why I didn’t apply for Sabah, Sarawak, KL or southern or eastern states. But, if I get one of those, I will accept it.

Cause I meant to be there.

Cause He knows the best what is best for me.

Am I right?

Of Hatred and Tears

It was the 2^nd time I cried to him.

I couldn’t bear with them anymore.

I couldn’t take them anymore.

I believe I deserved it much better.

Yes.

People said it’s a process of learning.

But,

I guess it’s a process of torturing,

Torturing mind, heart and soul.

I guess it’s a process of killing too.

Killing me softly...

Inside...and outside....

I’m dying...

Teach me, people.

Teach me, please.

Teach me how to swallow them without pain.

So that I can eat them all with a smile.

**Hati bertahanlah...bertahanlah...He knows what's the best for you....

**He wont give this challenges to you if He knows you cant take it...

Yakin dan bertawakallah duhai hati

Hate and Life

I know this is not good....

But I couldn't avoid them

For this time being....

I start hating KBA's admin

I start hating sports

I start hating extra classess

I start hating feedback

I start hating K reality shows.....

Extreme weather vs Mood Swing

 **middle finger**

What was that?

Fine.

Say as what you want.

Do as what you wish.

But I guess you dont have to show it to others.

Cause we have it too,

But we are just not like you.

Don't you feel ashamed for that?

Sticks and stones may hurt my bones but words and action never hurt me.

What goes around comes around...

 Suddenly, I remembered this song...

By Justin Timberlake....

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

[laughs]
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)
[laughs]

Frozen in Antarctica, melted in Sahara

thank you for those who have submitted the reflection for contemporary children's lit.  Those who have not, thank you very much, at least i know what you are made of.

I’m made of jellies, chocolates and ice cream....Anda pula?

Box

They always say that we have to think out of the box,

But when we are trying to open the box..they just knock us down.....completely....

Can I be a good teacher?

We went to SK Sri Saujana today for our language art teaching's experience. It was a great experience though. I MEAN IT!But I was quite frustrated with myself. I couldn't manage to carry out the story telling activity. I couldn't control the class. I can speak clearly, accurately and fluently.Huuuu.....Can I be a good teacher? Thanks to Faris, the saviour of the day. I learned a lot from you on how to working with the tiny thoughts. Ok Hani, starting from now,

1. don't be too ambitious. See you students' level of proficiency first.

2. don't be too kind and too soft when you first enter the class. Be firm! Cause they will 'makan' you later.

3. practice your facial expression from now. Biaq pi la if people want to say you a drama queen or what...because..'SO WHAT!'

4. Don't use grammatical correct language if you are working with tiny thought who have low level of proficiency. Use words that suit their level. They will just ignore you!

**I dont care if they want to throw me ke ulu-ulu...but I dont want big cities...**

*Teacher, teacher ni xtahu ckp bhsa Melayu ke?*

Astagfirullahalazim,

What's happening to our kids nowadays? I know I should be the agent of change but .....

Tapi kan semua yang berlaku itu ada hikmahnya...Insyallah...He knows the best, aite? cheers~

Earth Hour

"Earth Hour...Duhhh...Like I care"

Earth Hour vs CS a-sigh-ment = koew teow kungfu+fresh orange...hahaha

These pile of a-sigh-ment are killing softly now...

Mentally, emotionally, physically....and biologically!

What's happening now?

This is you say as so called understanding students' needs?

Does understanding means torturing?

I HATE IT SO MUCH!

DAMN MUCH!

IMU

I am missing home so much

IMU mak

Mak, jgn mls2 buang2...u r not fully recovered yet

IMU ayah

Ayah, jgn stress2...nnti kna high blood pressure lg

IMU adik

Dilah, sila jd berani...kak xdak nk teman adik tdoq

IMU abang

Abang, jgn stress2...I know u cn do it, dont pressure urself

IMU tok

Smoga sehat selalu...nnti cik balik cik cuci tlga tok lg

I MISS them so much

Happiness vs happyness

Happiness?

‘Happy’ ness?

Is it hard to find them?

Accept who you are

and smile at it

Just look around you,

Look with your eyes,

See with your heart,

Insyallah they will find you.